earthquake

You, you’re not aware
That we’re aware
Of your despair
Don’t show your tears
To your oppressor
Don’t show your tears
Try not to cry little
one
You’re not alone
I’ll stand by you
Try not to cry little one
My heart is your stone
I’ll throw with you

Sami yusuf nyanyi lagu tu
Hari ni macam mendung skit..hati aku pun agak mendung..banyak merenung, muhasabah diri yg sememangnya dah banyak lalai..
Semalam aku dengar lagu nie..buat aku sedih setiap kali dengar..cerita tentang penderitaan saudara2 kita di negara2 yang kacau bilau eg palestin, Iraq..terbayang wajah2 anak kecil..baya adik2 aku..sepupu n anak2 sepupu (bcoz aku belum ada anak sedara)..
Buat aku terfikir. sejauh mana aku dah membantu?
Malam semalam plak, tertengok citer Hindustan casting rani mukherjee n amitabh bachan..nama citer tu BLACK. Mengisahkan michelle yg buta pekak bisu, sorang pelajar oxford. N cikgu die yang dah tua yg cuba nak ajar michelle ni berdikari sebab die dah tua n akhirnya menghidap Alzheimer..huhuhu.. orang buta mengingatkan aku kat abang2 yg aku selalu jengok kat Library UM dulu..abang zam, abang hafiz, abang arshad..apela kabar diorang agaknya. Teringat zaman tolong bacakan buku untuk diorang, carikan buku rujukan, tengok ketangkasan tangan diorang tulis braille (cam ni ke eja Braille??) Huhu..gelapnya dunia. Pastu michelle tu siap pekak + bisu..gelap n sunyi la plak. Cikgu dia la yang jadi pemudahcara die masa kat Oxford. Pastu cikgu di plak kena Alzheimer. Huhu..ingat kat opah kat kampong.. ekspresi amitabh bachan tu real..cam muka opah..aku nangis je tengok masa tu..camtu agaknya rasanya tetiba boleh lupa..within seconds!! Konon nak belanja murid die makan aiskrim tetiba boleh lupa..maka die pulang dalam keadaan blur pegang ais krim n tinggal la si buta pekak bisu tu kat Bandar..
Erm..kita yang celik,tak bisu, tak tuli ni buat ape??
Pastu pagi tadi, tengok berita kol 7, Taiwan digegarkan dengan gegaran lebey kurang 7 skala richter..sepanjang minggu lepas banyak btol gempa bumi berlaku.. Indo, US..kiamat sudah dekat agaknya..dan Nampak gaya cam aku sendiri blum bersedia..
Adehh…kalo terlalu fikir pasal dunia langsung tak jadik keje, tapi kalo tak fikir cam tak berkembang plak otak nie..camane?? bukan ape..Cuma hati ni sayu skit pepagi nie..at least I still have my sensitivity n sensibility..

MARDI Science Week 2006

The FACTS..

1. My contribution on the abstract book..with cik murni!
2. New friends of course
3. A barrel of laughter with murni and mamu
4. Didn’t win any lucky draw as usual..haha!!!
5. Missed Mr. Kamar a.k.a Tie Merah
6. Still didn’t get karipap sardin from mamu

Conclusion, this is a very great week..
Next week.. P.R.O.P.O.S.A.L.!!!!

AM I???

Maya, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Personable

You come to life when you're around others and are a real “people person.”
You're also a natural leader and are able to maneuver difficult personal
situations with ease and tact. You're on the ball, assertive, and have energy to
carry out your best ideas. Not to mention the fact that people just enjoy being
around you. Compared to others who are outgoing, you have an unusually warm
nature.

Only 1.6% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.

That’s what tickle.com said.. tickled!
Waaahh..looks like maya is charming, likable, pleasant..erm..But do people see me this way?? Sumtimes i do think that peole are still “judging a book by it’s cover”..

AM I MISSING SOMETHING???

-----having some inferiority complex..once in a while-----

lalalalalala......

zakat?

zakat..rukun kelima yang ramai yang makin lupa akannya and sumtimes buat2 lupa..
semalam aku mengadula kat makcik sorang ni..$$tak cukup..eksiden la..2 kali..kiranya duit aku asyik mengalir je..huhu..aku redha..tapi terasa jugak la sengkeknye sebulan dua nie..
then dia cakap.."bayar zakat tak??..haaa..." erm..aku lupa bab tu.. Ya Allah..entah2 sebab tu kot..(btw, zakat fitrah bayar)..yang aku cakap ni pasal zakat pendapatan..cuak gile.. sebab tak berkat ooooo kalo tak bayar zakat..dah macam pengajaran aku dah tengok pasal bahana tak bayar zakat nie..ish3X..camane bleh lupe gak..

info: zakat pendapatan dikenakan 2.5% daripada pendapatan setahun setelah ditolak untuk perbelanjaan sara hidup etc...(bila dah cukup setahun)

so tadi aku pun jenguk la website PPZ -pusat pungutan zakat- www.e-zakat.com.my
aku browse..tengok FAQs, betui ke aku kena bayar zakat..penerangan kat situ sangat lengkap siap ada kalkulator..bleh kite kira berapa kena bayar zakat. aku pun ape lagi..selongkar balik slip gaji aku..hahaha!!!! aku pun kire la dengan bersungguh2.. bila klik KIRA kuar pop up "ANDA TIDAK LAYAK DIKENAKAN ZAKAT" huhu..sebab baki pendapatan setahun tolak sara hidup adela dalam RM500 lebey, 2.5% hanyalah RM14++..

alhamdulillah..(bukan sebab takyah bayar zakat..hehe) ade jugak orang yang menyedarkan aku.. haa..kawan2..ape kata korang pun cek jugak..
hidup ni biar tak kaya tapi sentiasa diberkati Allah..tak gitu??

ahhhaaaaiiiiii....

assalamualaikum..

ish..ish..ish..
jika diperhatikan posting sepanjang november, sangat terserlah status diri yang agak emosional..hihi..ape nak buat..banyak sangat benda jadi..
sekarang dah ok..(i hope)
well what to do..life is full of suprises..

tu je nak tulissss...

cough dropssss..

uhuk!! uhuk!!..
demam MAHA 2006.
tu la siang malam berjalan tak agak2..
ari isnin kol 12 dah tak larat..lembik sampai petang..
tawakkal je bawak kete petang tu..
dah siap mengucap kalo2 tak sempat sampai umah..

ari kames baru keje..
kepala still pusing2..jalan kena pegang dinding..
sore pun tak kuar mane..
this morning mentor aku tanya..
"dah fikir dah nak wat pe for 2nd cycle nye proposal??"
aku pun jawab..tengah fikir lagi..
pastu die buat impresssion yang kena pikir kuat2 skit..
haha!!!

memang aku try pikir pun mase demam2 tu pun..
tapi idea ntah hape2 yg kuar..
ade ke kuar dapat idea nak bina bumbung yg boleh tukar colour..
portable garrage..with intelligent roof top..
purpose die supaya rumput takla rosak..
bumbung tu boleh jadi transparent kalo takde kete kat bawah die..
kalo ade kete bawah die surface tu jadi legap..
haa..itu ilham demam,,,,,,,,,,
ade lagi idea lain..tapi ingat2 lupa..sebab makan ubat batuk n selsema..
asyik tidoooooo jerr.....

when you lost it..

it seemed like such fun
until you loose what you have won..
look what you've done
you made a fool of everyone..

i nearly lost my ummi..
that's what happenned last week.
it made think twice to disobey ummi ever again..(insyaAllah)
ummi had a stroke while having discussion with me and falah..

cant tell you the whole story..i'd rather delete it from my memory stick hehe..i stayed with ummi for almost 36 hours..i cant sleep..when ummi was sleeping i cried beside her..never felt like this before..the feeling of loosing someone you love the most..your strength, your sunshine.. everything..i went to work on Wednesday..trying to be normal, telling myself to keep it together but that evening i ended up crying my heart out..i called upon a trusted fren to stay with me..a guy actually. so he saw me crying like a baby..huhuhu..i think a had a nervous breakdown (",) but feeling better right after..

i'm okay now..ready to face all challenges..hihihi..you go girl!!

rejection..

who can stand rejection..?? pliz stand up.
definitely not me..i'm not that strong..
Rasulullah?? yes..

my sciencefund proposal was a total mess..it was rejected..
no more kickstart..instead i have to start all over again..

this is what they say about my proposal:

For durian, in view of its decreasing commercial potential
in future, suggest similar work to be carried out on more important and emerging
fruit types eg: *****,#####,%%%%%. In future, research should focus on the crop of study or relevant discipline with sufficient detail to justify chosen area of research. REJECT.

i thought i was strong enough to face this rejection, but i ended up crying everytime i read this comment. lembik btol pempuan nie..huhuhu..that's why i post it so that i can challenge myself.

failure is the essence of success..right??

hand in my pocket

since nobody's perrrrrfect..
i kinda like this song..
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine..

Hand In My Pocket
Alanis Morissette

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

hehe..lame gile..

lama giler tak tulis blog..

this is my 1st post as a 24 years old girl (..girl??..)
banyak betul perkara berlaku..
berturut-turut..
sepanjang berlakunya kisah2 kehidupan nie..aku asyik teringat, balik ni nak tulis dalam blog la.. but in the end..sekarang pada ketika aku menaip ni semuanya hilang tiba-tiba..
ape yg boleh aku komen...semuanye memberi aku pengalaman tapi dipakejkan dlm bentuk latih tubi.. harharhar!!!

dalam banyak2 yang kat bawah nie je ada, sebab aku tulis mase tunggu majlis mula kat HILTON KL. pensil n kertas yang disediakan KELIHATAN amat menarik di samping marshmellow n gula2 yg aku takleh usik sebab aku pose hari tu..