Thursday 21 August 2008

Remembrance of Al-Quds!~


cur-hat

pagi kames, idong tersumbat, meja penuh dengan kertas, yang bermakna banyak lagi kerja belum siap.esok petang..ada perjumpaan berkenaan penyerahan tugas. yang bermakna makin banyak la keje aku pasni..tak tahu la apa nak jadi. manusia ke robot..?? aku sebenarnye bengang dengan keadaan..(perkara sebegini tak sepatutnya berlaku..sebab kita mestilah redha..) tapi aku nak sangat betulkan keadaan, tapi nampak gaya aku belum mampu nak lakukan.

"she's not my mentee.. so she wouldn't know what dipterocarp is..." then she laughed. WHAT A HARSH STATEMENT..i answered it with a right answer though..but still..it didn't meant anything because i'm not her mentee..ape maksudnya tu..?? ingat aku ni bodoh sangat ke?? just bcoz i'm not her ptotege, i'll be the most ignorant person in the building..?? come on la..i have books, library and the net..to help me indulge in this dipterocarp what-so-ever thingy..tau ke dia bila aku keluar masuk duduk bertapa kat library baca buku pasal dipterocarp..jadik penunggu section malaysiana..tanye skit..takkan semua nak kena btau..?? i know i am the most unwanted person because of my mentor..hellooo..u guyz are dragging me into his problem.. it is not my fault i had him as my mentor...but i just did. what can i do?? don't even bother to help, as far as i'm concerned i'm trying my best to survive here...and now, suddenly i need to take over all of his jobs..God, pliz give me some strength..i need to say it out loud tomorrow..sebab mereka ni 'ada mata pejam, ada telinga dengar ada mulut diam' agaknya..takyah pening2 pk.

ok sekian sesi cur-hat..selagi tak tulis, tak lepas..sakit hati..sekarang lega....

aku...insan yang kesal, mungkin dia tak terasa dengan apa yang dia cakap, tapi aku cukup rasa terhina..sebab aku bukan bayang-bayang..

Thursday 7 August 2008

nak kawen pun tak sempat!!

AgrobIS= Agrobiodiversity Information System

AgrobIS ni dah membelenggu hidup kami kat SR (my center-my workplace) for years..especially these few months. we have developed a database to accomodate the utilization of agricultural biodiversity. and next week, AgrobIS will be launched during MAHA 2008 (www.mahaexpo.com). we have been working 7 days a week for nearly two months now..

and today, one of my colleague said this..
"Aiyaa..agrobis ni dah mengorbankan banyak masa-masa kita nak bersosial..nak kawen pun tak sempat.." haha..kelakar gaks..bcoz most of us are bachelors and still in our 20's. kalo selalu camni, mmg tak kawen la..bile nak caik pakwe/makwe kalo asik berkurung siapkan database...huk huk huk!!

aku pun terpikir, aku ni makin lama makin kurang bersosial dengan masyarakat. aku tahu, pegi keje, balik keje..bercakap dgn jiran tetangga pun dah "berat mulut"..aku hanya akan senyum je bile berselisih..

workload will never ends..neverr....i felt uneasy jugak la, sebab bersosial nih penting gaks..kena tengok senario semasa, jadi manusia..

aku tatau la ape aku merepek..tapi pasni aku kena seimbangkan aktiviti aku..jasmani,rohani,emosi,intelektualiti,dunia, akhirat..

hrmmm...mase tulih posting ni aku masih dalam bilik meeting..so camane??

Wednesday 6 August 2008

Heart of a Muslim..

always near to my heart, this nasyeed nurtures the most simple things in life..
found it in a Children's Nasyeed collection i do think that adult should embrace it too..


Looking up at the sky, searching for Allah most High
He rejected the way of worshipping Gods of clay
Prophet Ebrahim knew that Allah was near
And that the heart of a Muslim is sincere

Under the hot burning sun, he declared God is one
Though with stones on his chest, his Imaan would not rest
The Muadhin knew that right would conquer wrong
And the heart of a Muslim must be strong

It's the heart of a Muslim through the guidance of Islam
That makes you fair and kind and helpful to your fellow man
So living as a Muslim means that you must play a part
Allah looks not at how you look, but what is in your heart

In our poor meager state, little food on our plate
Mother said she was glad, always sharing what we had
When I asked how can we share what's not enough
She said the heart of a Muslim's filled with love

He said its time you should know, you will learn as you grow
That some people around will do what's bad to bring you down
Father said to be a star that's shining bright
For the heart of a Muslim does what's right

So whatever you, make sure your words are true
Honesty is the best, because life is a test
Even if it hurts so much you want to cry
For the heart of a Muslim does not lie

Saturday 2 August 2008

Siakap 3 rasa!



















Chak..!! I just came back from KT to attend our half year project monitoring..1o hari di Terengganu..<--The fish-->The Siakap was so big (almost 10 kg)..i tumpang amek gambar..orang2 di sana memancing di tembok (tembok ke..?) entahla..sumwhere depan Grand Continental KT, ada satu binaan berbentuk separuh bulatan, sort of tambak untuk kurangkan kesan ombak pada pantai dan mudahkan nelayan pulang ke pantai...gambar lagi satu tu plak, aku dok kat atas batu batuan binaan tu, cuba tengok kat belakang tu, tu la jalan keluar masuk bot nelayan...what a pleasant view...sunrise btol2 tepat depan mata..