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Thursday, 23 February 2006

jatuh terjelepukkkk...

erm.. 15 hari yang lalu.. ada seseorang telah melamar aku.. huhu..tak terkata.. dia soh fikir.. aku pun fikir..dan terus fikir.. 9 hari yang lalu, aku ke jakarta-bandung.. bercuti sambil belajar kononnya.. belajar apa?? belajar membeli belah.. bila teringatkan insan tu.. aku berfikir..nak ke tanak.. berani ke tak berani.. cuba menduga hati sendiri.. yang sememangnya keliru.. lagi celaru.. seperti mahu.. tapi.. ada tapi..?? tapi tak tahu kenapa.. aku cuba lagi.. seperti mahu.. cuba lagi.. tapi masih ada tapi.. kenapa hati aku ni tanak.. tanak bulat membuat keputusan.. cuba sedapkan hati yang keliru.. maya istikharah dulu.. tapi harus tunggu.. munajat dulu.. 5 hari yang lalu.. bertemu insan lain.. tiada plak rasa ape2 yang pelik.. tapi masih ada yang tak kena.. cuba ingatkan orang yang ku temui 15 hari yang lalu.. aku tanya hati.. sudah ada jawapan?? hati aku diam membisu.. kosong.. kenapa?? aku terus tertanya-tanya.. aku pulang ke Malay tanpa sebarang jawapan.. 2 hari yang lalu.. aku gelisah.. fikiran celaru.. hati keliru.. menangis tak tentu.. kerana aku rasa ada sesuatu yang tak kena teringat insan yang ku temui 5 hari yang lalu panik.. panik.. panik.. tergendala urusan aku.. panik kerana hairan.. mengapa orang lain.. dalam hati dan fikiranku.. teringat pesan sahabatku.. "kita asyik ketawa..nanti menangis" kemungkinan aku telah jatuh hati.. pada insan yang ku temui 5 hari yang lalu.. aku panik lagi.. camane boleh jadi macam ni?? parah..parah.. apa harus aku katakan apa insan yang ku temui 15 hari yang lalu.. apa harus aku lakukan?? yang dikejar nanti tak dapat.. yang dikendong berciciran.. Ya ALLAH, sesungguhnya aku keliru.. takut.. mata lahiri mengaburi mata hati.. apa sebenarnya yang berlaku? yang di sini ingin tahu.. yang di sana langsung tak tahu.. tunjukkanlah jalan terbaik buatku.. bantulah hambaMu yang buntu ini..

we r from the 80's..

got this article from harlaf..sweett...
http://202.185.69.130/80.htm

tanda-tanda anda bayi tahun 80-an dan sebelumnye:
kita membesar dgn menonton G-Force, He-man, Transformers, Thundercats, Silver Hawk, Woody Woodpecker, Chipmunks and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles, Mask, Smurfs dan Voltron.

berus gigi time waktu rehat kat skolah rendah?...hmm, mesti pegang cawan warna-warni kan. mencangkung kat tepi parit dgn classmates semua kat seblah... ingat tak, misi kat skolah masuk kelas dgn list dentist appointment. pastu bunyi gigi member kite kene gerudi kat bilik sebelah. ada gigi yang berlubang, kene laa tampal. aku salah sorang yang lari .... takoot nye pasal...... ni sure korang ingat...

program minum susu di skolah. nak galakkan budak2 time tuh minum susu. sekotak 30 sen jek beb... cikgu2 kalau nak denda, mesti guna pembaris panjang warna kuning tu. pukul tapak tangan...kan? ataupun kene berdiri atas kusi.... atau berdiri luar kelas semangkuk mi sup ke, mihun sup ke, 30 sen jek kat kantin. air sirap 10sen jek.

Ampang park, pertama, cambell, Hankyu Jaya, Yaohan - shopping complex yang popular utk meluangkan masa dgn family. ni for those yg dok KL laa Theme park paling canggih pun mimaland laaaa.... ade dinasour n gelongsour air tinggi.....

time skolah menengah, korang sure beli kasut skolah Bata BM Turbo atau Pallas Jazz. ada yang suka kasut high-cut yang buatan china tu...carefree - ada yang suka stoking tebal laaa... internet? email? mendalah ape tu? CD? ape tu? kaset tape penah laa dgr. tiket wayang pun 5 inggit je. kite pegi kedai runcit, beli Chickerdis, Mamee , Kum Kum, UFO, O-Ya, Ding Dang chocolate balls yang ada mainan kat dlm die, 'telur' keras warna warni, 'rokok' chewing gum, KIKI Bubble Gum.

tak dilupakan, 'Ti Kam'.... aku penah jual kat sekolah, hehehe pastu kantoi dgn ustaz..... kenelaa rampas bile dah abih exam, main Monopoly la, Donkey la, Happy Family laa dlm class. tapi bunyi loceng laa yang paling best skali. boleh beli aiskrim ngan apek kat luar skola tuh... aiskrim seposen dan jajan kacang goreng sambal. lagi satu loceng masa nak pegi rehat. tinggal kan keje skolah, jom kita pegi makan. budak2 yg dpt Rancangan Makanan Tambahan (RMT) mesti kluar awal. kalo member tak datang kite laa tulun makan kan.....

lagi satu yang seronok mase time Pendidikan Jasmani, PJ. main bola laa, rounders laa... permainan kegemaran, main guli, main getah, batu seremban, penutup botol, batang aiskrim, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-three', 'Police & Sentry', kejar2 duduk... main gasing, main terup tepuk, macam2 itu semua ikut musim laaa.....

kita hilangkan dahaga dgn aiskrim 10 sen. yang tube aiskrim, ada byk2 color tu. kalau nak makan, kene patahkan kat tengah2 die! lipat kertas kecik2, pastuh buat lastik. hmmm..ni pun kita main dulu ni. baling2 kapur laa. hmm...

budak2 kat university skarang, kebanyakan nye lahir thn 1987/88. skarang digelar 'remaja'. bagi diorg, diorg mane penah dgr lagu 'We Are the World, We Are the Children...' dan lagu 'Uptown Girl' yang diorg tau, yg Westlife nyanyi....bkn Billy Joel nyanyi... bagi diorg, ada satu je Jerman kat dunia ni, dan ade satu je Vietnam. AIDS wujud sejak diorg lahir. CD pun wujud time diorg lahir. Michael Jackson dah putih dah time tu. Diorg percaya Spiderman dgn Incredible Hulk tu filem2 baru.

Diorg tak bley bayangkan skrin hitam putih utk sebuah komputer. Diorg tak penah tau pun 'Atari' dgn 'Game & Watch'. Diorg tak percaya penah ada TV hitam putih...dan diorg skarang tak reti nak switch on TV kalau xde remote control. dan diorg tak paham macam mane kite boleh survive dkt universiti tanpa handphone...

hmm...jom kite check, kite ni dah tua ke:
1. korg paham ape yang korang baca kat atas ni, dan korg sure tersenyum
2. kebanyakan member2 skolah menengah kite dah kawin
3. korg sure pelik bile nengok bdak2 kecik main komputer, selamba je
4. kita geleng kepala bile nengok bdak2 skolah menengah guna handphone
5. kita dah tak byk sembang2 dgn member melalui telefon lagi setiap hari
6. bile jumpe member lame dari semasa ke semasa, seronok bile bersembang pasal cerite2 lame, cerite2 kelakar yang kite alami mase dulu time kecik2, nakal2 dulu...
7. last skali, bile dah bace email ni, korang akan terpikir utk forwardkan dkt member2 lame korg. Sure diorg suke punye laa...hehehe

Yaa, kite pun dah semakin tua!! Teringat zaman2 dulu kan?

terjelepuk..jatuh..continues

ermm..6 hari yang lalu aku buntu..
so, aku tulih mengarut2..nak lepaskan perasaan..
haha..aku lebih tenang sekarang..rupa-rupa mengadu kat Kekasih Agung begitu menenangkan..
hilang segala rasa sedih, buntu, gelisah, keliru..
begitu hebat Dia menenangkan aku..
alhamdulillah aku lebih rasional minggu nie..
masih terus menggunakan hotline setiap malam supaya Dia tak lupakan aku..erm..aku tahu aku selalu lupakan Dia, sebab hanyut dengan dunia yang fana' lagi maya nie..
lagipun aku masih lagi mencari kepastian, menanti jawapan..
supaya mudah aku membuat keputusan..
hopefully segala kurniaNya pada aku especially ketenangan ini berpanjangan..
Thanks Allah for Your kindness, Your attention & Your love towards me..
Love You with all my heart.. =)

panjang aku tulih, dah aku delete..segan plak..nie sebahagian je..

aku pulang ke Malaya tanpa sebarang jawapan..

2 hari yang lalu..
aku gelisah..
fikiran celaru..
hati keliru..
menangis tak tentu..
kerana aku rasa
ada sesuatu yang tak kena
teringat insan yang ku temui
5 hari yang lalu
panik..
panik..
panik..
tergendala urusan aku..
panik kerana hairan..
mengapa orang lain..
dalam hati dan fikiranku
..

Friday, 17 February 2006

it's only a job..huhuhu

i love my job,
it's the work that i hate..hahaha!!
just kidding =)

1. proposal for RM-9 research
2. proposal for IRPA-MOSTI
3. proposal for short-term grant
4. proposal for framework for MARDI PGRFA Management System
4. LP-RAPD on Pisang Tanduk & Pisang Nipah
5. MARDI Plant Genebank Database
6. National Agrobiodiversity Conference
7. Agroforestry Conference

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IRPA= Intensification of Research in Priority Areas
MOSTI= Ministry of Science & Technology and Innovation
PGRFA= Plant Genetic Resource for Food and Agriculture
LP-RAPD= Long Primer- Random Amplified Polymorphism DNA
MARDI= Malaysian Agricultural Research & Development Institute
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itulah timbunan kerja ku..
ape lagi...!!!! ramai2...mari buat kerja..
sesungguhnya aku dibayar gaji..

cing-cing-konet-cing-konet-cing-konet-konet-konet-

Wednesday, 15 February 2006

killer jigsaw puzzle!

enjoy...

Blonde calls her boyfriend and says,
"Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get started."

Her boyfriend asks,
"What is it supposed to be when it's finished?"

The blonde says,
"According to the picture on the box, it's a rooster."

Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle.
She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table.

He studies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her and says,
"First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a rooster".

He then takes her hand and says patiently,
"Secondly, I want you to relax. Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then ..."

he said with a deep sigh ...

"Let's put all these Corn Flakes back in the box."

sumthing funny..
for my totally confused mind!

Monday, 6 February 2006

_the_yellow_wall_

assalamualaikum..setelah lama tak menulis..keje banyak nie..tapi nak tulis gaks skit..
well, gambar kat atas nie poyyooo btul..dinding kuning..dari kiri Suria, kak Dayang n Maya..well, sabtu lepas kitorang cat bilik opis..warna kuning..kat tong cat tu kata warna kuning tu kuning 'jovial'..ceria la konon..haha!! letih gile..balik terus flat..so on the next monday, we all janji pakai baju kuning sbb nak posing kat dinding baru nie..ntah hape2 kan..? tak kesah le, janji hati suka..

Thursday, 2 February 2006

0-2-0-2-2-0-0-6

terharu..
keliru..
celaru..
haru-biru..
kelabu..
biru..
cencaru..

huhu..inilah harinya..

nak nangis..

White Women vs Malay Man..huh??

got this from http://alongsj.blogspot.com
a good read.

I got this from my colleague..really good email. Kind of funny. Also I hope to all those who read it, especially my overseas readers who are white, please don't take offense. The first letter from a White Female who married a Malay guy. The second letter comes from a Malay guy, responding to the first letter.
Dear Editor:I'm sorry but I would like to challenge some of your Malay male readers. I am a White female who is engaged to a Malay male-good-looking, educated and loving. I just don't understand a lot of Malay female's attitudes about our relationship. My man decided he wanted me because the pickings amongst Malay women were slim to none.As he said they were either too fat, too loud, too mean, too argumentative,too needy, too materialistic or carrying too much excess baggage. Before I became engaged, whenever I went out I was constantly approached by Malay men, willing to wine and dine me and give me the world. If Malay women are so up in arms about us being with their men,why don't they look at themselves and make some changes. I am tired of the dirty looks I get and snide remarks when we're out in public.I would like to hear from some Malay men about why we are so appealing and coveted by them. Bryant Gumbel just left his wife of, 26 years for one of us. Charles Barkley, Scottie Pippen, the model Tyson Beckford, Montell Williams, Quincy Jones, James Earl Jones, Harry Belafonte, Sydney Poitier, Kofi Anan, Cuba Gooding Jr., Don Cornelius, Berry Gordy, Billy Blanks, Larry Fishburne, Wesley Snipes, ..I could go on and on.But, right now, I'm a little angry and that is why I wrote this so hurriedly. Don't be mad with us White women because so many of your men want us. Get your acts together and learn from us and we may lead you to treat your men better. If I'm wrong, Malay men, let me know.

Disgusted White Girl,
Somewhere in Bangsar.
Read On.............
This letter was written in response to an article:Response:Dear Editor: I would like to respond to the letter written by A Disgusted White Girl. Let me start by saying that I am a 28-year old Malay man. I graduated from one of the most prestigious universities in England with a Masters Of Science Degree in Business Management. I have a good job at a Multinational Corporation and have recently purchased ahouse and a brand new non-national car. So, I consider myself to be among the ranks of successful Malay men. I will not use my precious time to slander white people. I just want to set the record straight of why Malay men date white women.Back in the days, one of the biggest reasons why Malay men dated white women was because they were considered easy. The Malay girls in my neighborhood were raised traditionally. They were very strict about when they lost their virginity and who they lost it to. Because of our impatience to wait, brothers would look for someone who would give it up easy without too much hassle. So, they turned to the white girls.Nowadays, in my opinion, a lot of Malay males date white women because they are docile and easy to control. A lot of Malay men, because of insecurities, fears, and overall weaknesses, have become intimidated by the strength of our Malay women. We are afraid that our woman will be more successful than us, make more money than us, drive nicer cars and own bigger houses. Because of this fear, many Malay men look for a more docile woman. Someone we can control.I have talked to numerous Malay men and they continuously comment on how easy it is to control and walk over their white women. I just want to set the record straight. I want A Disgusted White Girl to know that not all succe ssful Malay men date white women. Non-Whites like Ahmad Rashad, Denzel Washington, Michael Jordan, Morris Chestn! ut, Will Smith, Blair Underwood, Kenneth "Babyface" Edmonds, Samuel L. Jackson, and Chris Rock all married strong Non-White women. And, to flip the script, there are numerous white men, in and out of the spot light, who openly or secretly desire Non-White women over white women. Ted Danson, Robert DeNiro, and David Bowie to name a few. I just don't want a disgusted white girl to be misinformed.Stop thinking that because you are white that you are some type of goddess. Remember, when Non-White Egyptian Queens like Hatsepshut and Nitorcris were ruling Dynasties and armies of men in Egypt, you were over in the caves of Europe eating raw meat and beating each other over the head with clubs. Read your history!It was the Non-White woman that taught you how to cook and season your food. It was the Non-White woman that taught y ou how to raise your children. It was Non-White women who were breastfeeding and raising your babies during slavery. It is the Non-White woman that had to endure watching their fathers, husbands, and children beaten, killed, and thrown in jail. Malay women were born with two strikes against them: being Non-White and being awoman. And, through all this, Still They Rise!It is because of the Malay women's strength, elegance, power, love and beauty that I could never date anyone except my Malay Queen. It is not just the outer beauty that captivates and draws me to them. It is not the fact that they come in all shapes, sizes, colors and shades that I love them.Their inner beauty is what I find most appealing about Malay women. Their strong spirit, loving and nurturing souls, their integrity, their ability to overcome great obstacles, their willingness to stand for what they believe in, and their determination to succeed and reach their h ighest potential while enduring great pain and suffering is why I havefallen in love with Malay women.I honestly believe that your anger is geared more toward jealousy and envy than snotty looks. If this were not so, then why do you continuously go to tanning salons to darken your skin? If you are so proud to be white, then why don't you just be happy with your pale skin? Why do you continue to inject your lips, hips, and breasts with unnatural and dangerous substances so you can look fuller and more voluptuous? I think that your anger is really a result of you wanting to have what the Non-White woman has.BOTTOM LINE: If I were looking for a docile woman, someone I can walk over and control, I would give you a call. But, unfortunately, I am looking for a Virtuous Woman. Someone that can be a good wife and mother to my children. Someone who can be my best friend and understands my struggles. I am looking for a soul mate and ; unfortunately, you do not and CANNOT fit the bill.
No offense taken, none given.

Signed,
Malay Professional