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Thursday, 21 August 2008

cur-hat

pagi kames, idong tersumbat, meja penuh dengan kertas, yang bermakna banyak lagi kerja belum siap.esok petang..ada perjumpaan berkenaan penyerahan tugas. yang bermakna makin banyak la keje aku pasni..tak tahu la apa nak jadi. manusia ke robot..?? aku sebenarnye bengang dengan keadaan..(perkara sebegini tak sepatutnya berlaku..sebab kita mestilah redha..) tapi aku nak sangat betulkan keadaan, tapi nampak gaya aku belum mampu nak lakukan.

"she's not my mentee.. so she wouldn't know what dipterocarp is..." then she laughed. WHAT A HARSH STATEMENT..i answered it with a right answer though..but still..it didn't meant anything because i'm not her mentee..ape maksudnya tu..?? ingat aku ni bodoh sangat ke?? just bcoz i'm not her ptotege, i'll be the most ignorant person in the building..?? come on la..i have books, library and the net..to help me indulge in this dipterocarp what-so-ever thingy..tau ke dia bila aku keluar masuk duduk bertapa kat library baca buku pasal dipterocarp..jadik penunggu section malaysiana..tanye skit..takkan semua nak kena btau..?? i know i am the most unwanted person because of my mentor..hellooo..u guyz are dragging me into his problem.. it is not my fault i had him as my mentor...but i just did. what can i do?? don't even bother to help, as far as i'm concerned i'm trying my best to survive here...and now, suddenly i need to take over all of his jobs..God, pliz give me some strength..i need to say it out loud tomorrow..sebab mereka ni 'ada mata pejam, ada telinga dengar ada mulut diam' agaknya..takyah pening2 pk.

ok sekian sesi cur-hat..selagi tak tulis, tak lepas..sakit hati..sekarang lega....

aku...insan yang kesal, mungkin dia tak terasa dengan apa yang dia cakap, tapi aku cukup rasa terhina..sebab aku bukan bayang-bayang..